One of the things that kind of comes with the odd package that is me, is that I have a hard time focusing on things. I space out a lot of the time, finding it hard to focus on the task at hand. I seem overstimulated, not able to really filter things out. This leads to me spending a lot of time just kind of flitting from one thing to another, my brain afire with ideas, thoughts and feelings.
I finding out that my inability to focus is probably part and parcel of me being autistic. A fellow autistic blogger shares how her brain works and it reminds me of my own way of thinking.
If someone sees how I work, they might think I'm just wasting time. But what they don't see is that I am being flooded with information and really don't have way to tune it out.
I've been trying to use medication to help and it has helped a little bit, but the manic nature of my mind is still there and will always be there.
If you're wondering how I am able to get to sleep with such a manic mind...well, that's another story.